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I still can’t believe it is 2012 now especially when I write the date. If I don’t do this, I didn’t realize it is 4 years since Beijing Olympic Games 2008 and 10 years more since we graduated from junior high school, here we means my honey and I, whom this paper I am talking about.

Back ten years ago, no one could believe what would happen to me in 2011, It seems so amazing and I thought it was a dream for a long time. I don’t know, I am so luck and feel good. The only thing that I regret is I could do more for the day coming. Anyway I think it can’t be late, I will try my best to do everything I could for her.

Dear, I love you, be good to you and will always. I won’t let you, our family and anybody who know us letdown, I promise. Nothing can stop me and of course I will never give you up.

The 2011 had passed away with all the good and bad things.
Although I care so much, I don’t wanna talk and spend too much time on it, it makes me feel uncomfortable. All we need to do is get together and make everything be good for the future that we talked and conceived all the time. I should let all the things come true and we should make them beautiful and special like we planed that we won’t forget the whole life.

Good bye 2011 and the two thousand years after Jesus born.
I didn’t get much before and I didn’t need in the future. All I can get by myself, but I pray good luck for me and nothing that can’t control happen.

I remember all the hopes we hoped and all the wish we wished in LongHua.

As you need, I wrote the hopes you told me in New Year’s Eve down, although I remembered clearly.
First, pass the driving license exam.
Second, improve English.
Third, learn financial management and read one professional books at least.
Fourth, follow me and be strong.
Fifth, follow me and fall in love with me.
Sixth, follow me, trust me.
Eight, point out all the syntax, phrasing and expression errors for me.

20120110

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Baby, I should say thank you at first and I will say lots in the future especially when I am making a speech if you know what I am saying.

I don’t know how to express the feeling right now.

I told my family about us and what i thought these days. I kind of a little unconfident just now, afraid of something unexpected would happen that I can’t do the thing i promised, I don’t know if this could make change on the  relationship about us and the track should go what it used to be.

I like you crazy before, but i didn’t realize you are good far more than I thought as the days accumulated we were together, the more i know you and you like me gradually, more deeply I fall in love with you. I can’t imagine what if the supposing things happened. Does this was called the “fate” thing? What I regret is I wasted too much time, situation should be better and I could do more.

I do not know it was good or bad that thing goes like this, the sensitive feeling, the understanding between us.  Although I hate society in China what we were, we are and will be, I love the everything between us. These amazing feelings should be continue, last forever I would let them. The meaning of my life I realized starts, I am clear for what I should do.

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Everybody here, dear all, I am ready to get married, I will do everything I could for this, I mean it.

Past is the past, I hope you everything goes well from now on and I hope you thought in the same way. No resentment, I know many things happened last 24 years, the sadness and happiness every picture become hazy like a dream. We lost a lot meanwhile that we got a lot, I should say thank you and I would also say sorry.

I am grateful for what the fate arrange now and I pray for all. Good luck.

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Met you by surprise I didn’t realize

That my life would change forever.

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DO EVERYTHING I COULD FOR YOU, FOR US, FOR THE FUTURE.

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I hate the feeling right now.

I am sad for the beautiful words above have gone.

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从来没有如此在乎过以前从来不屑的东西, 也不知道这些事情会有关联.

给自己二年的时间, 希望现在的努力不是太晚.

某人用Java搞了一个流体力学的演示：http://grantkot.com/MPM/Liquid.html

不过，这仅仅是个开始。某同学将其发布上了reddit.com，于是，全世界的同学们开始给力了。

Flash的开发者首先不服，搞了个 flash版（带源码）：http://wonderfl.net/c/yxe9

看到了Flash版，Javascript+HTML5的同学们也不干了，于是出现HTML5版（带源码）：http://www.music.mcgill.ca/~sinclair/content/blog/liquid_simulator_ported_to_canvas

不过性能慢了很多，所以，又有人优化了一下HTML5版的程序：http://jsbin.com/unovo4

SVG的同学们也不甘寂寞，不过，那真叫一个慢啊：http://ulo.pe/js-liquid-svg/

这个时候，C/C++同学出来了，使用SDL库也搞了一个：http://q3k.org/fluidsim.zip

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Here, comes again. Half a year past.

Before graduate, the classmates all think that I have found a good job, c/c++ developer, in Augmentum. Which was told work for Microsoft, Motor and some companies like that, all people there should speak English. Now, I am end with it. Think about those days, what the fuck.

Anyway, I wouldn’t hate the company. I got a English name here, Charles, I like it. At least the first thing I know is that I am not a student anymore, things wouldn’t go with my wills. The way that Microsoft runs was really good and hight technology. The environment was good and the co-workers really do good to me. Franklin, Tony, Summal, Leah, I will remember you all. I say my sorry here, all the things are good. But I do really not wanna be a tester in the future. I am sorry.

Thanks me-tech, this company I will pray for you my whole life. You seems like a family and I like a kid who did some wrong things, you accept me again. I will work hard and put my value here and grow up with you. Thanks.

LvHaiJiaYuan ChuanSha PuDong ShangHai China

Charles,

Including lots of classic intview questions,Although it hasn’t published yet,i like this book,good luck to the author and hope it could give me luck!

here are some notes of mine after reading it.of course it didn’t finish,just a tag.

1.auto is a default key in c.it can be elided.by the way sizeof is also a key but the function.

2.register is also a key in c.means register variable.

3.key volatile:the variable can be changed not in a absolute way.

4.the difference between declaration and definition is definition create a object and allocate

memory for the object while declaration do not allocate memory.

5.pay more attention on the name of variable.

6.know the difference and the result

int a[100];
sizeof(a) sizeof(a[100]) sizeof(&a) sizeof(&a[0]) sizeof a

7.strlen can just get the length of char type.

8.the style of if-else and function should like this:
if()
{
;
}

void func()
{
;
}

not
if(){
}
if();
void func(){
}

9.compare with zero.
bool the best style is if(!pTestTag) and if(pTestTag)
float the best style is if((fTestVal >=-EPSINON) && (fTestVal <= EPSINON)); //EPSINON is

the precision have been definetion.
point the best style is
int *p=NULL; if(NULL==p); if (p!=NULL)

10.25

It has half of years since i put some words here.Actually I have lots to write.2010 will be deeply carve in my memory forever.My dad leaved us.When I was young,i thought about the lives and been interested in it for a long time.How it starts, how it  continues and how it ends.I asked my father and know lots of answers from him.I forgot it right soon.And now when i thought about it again,my father were not along with me and will not accompany me any more not matter happy or angry.the laugh ever exited would disappear forever.
How it could be this,I can’t believe what had happened on me and my family.When i saw my father broke the last breathing,the last heartbeat stops,his face stick in my mind.Leave it there,so many things i regret.I was so sad,if the god could give my father more twenty years i will let thirty years change.I am a son with less filial piety and i am the murder.Each time i came to the cemetery,i know it was the truth but can’t accept it more and more serious.He exist in my dreams every time,it was so true,he talk with me and his education on me appeared time by time.
I cried,i missed my father.if he could be rebirth i will do everything.If times could come back again,you should be a good pilots and i will be you son,a better son!
DAD,I MISSED YOU!YOU WILL BE ALIVE IN MY HEART FOREVER!YOU SHOULD MAKE A BETTER LIFE IN THE OTHER WORLD!

I have been ShangHai almost a week,after several busy days full of interviews.I missed the past days more.Life tried but enrich.

It’s Happy Mid-Autumn day today.Just forgot it until a friend gave me a apple and one moon cake.What am i thinking,thank her here.

This program stumps  me a whole day.In fact it was a simple program just windows hook and MDB access.It went OK these days.I decide to compose them togeher.I have tested it part by part.perfect,but some unbelieved problems existed when combined them.I checked several times,still have no idea about it.

Maybe the global hook function leads,part in the thread runs good.And it could be parameter past to the function caused.They are special causation it was handle and CSting type.It could use in MFC program but the dll file can just calls API.

Oh,my god.It’s Happy Mid-Autumn day today!What i am doing here.

Some friend were angry with me these days.For my speaking eng.I just thought it was funny.

So many things puzzled me,I was too tried.And vac gonna over.Once I can to this new bolg to write somethings.It always making the mood up and down.I am so sorry most of time it was upset.It was a satire.Just like the popular words on the net,im writhing loneliess instead of writhing papers.

Several things I have done.It is important for me.

I changed my nick name which I used almost 5 years.Um,it was nothing.I mean the name.And now nothing had gone.Hash instead of  it,just like random instead.I can do nothing to the truth what I can treat it like the nick name said.It can’t be  nothing to me.Some sad on me I had to say.Anyway it was past,hash is going.No sensitive anymore.I can fix me up.Just like my old sister.I am proud of  her.Good things always need to say more.Yep,im proud of her.

I decide back  to hackbase.For I am free now,and it need my help I think.At the time when I was leaving I thought it would be OK without someone.But I am wrong.Things often happen out of our thought.I should be back.And will try my best to be a good thread administrator.At the same time write more useful things for news in hackbase BBS.I enjoy doing this.As a matter of fact I wanna write in English if I can.haha.

All for this,the things happen in ShenZhen had gone into my heart deeply.I will be remember it.Taro,come on,u r not the best,but u always know what u r doing and try to get it.AH.

Ever time when i went here and want to write something. I know there were too many things in my heart. I have to write it down and relax myself.

It is two years that I say to myself I am a hacker. And i do lots of things to get it . Yeah,I have done it . As the time goes by, after I graduate from college. So many things seems don’t simple again. I am a hacker, my soul, no only the technology in the computer, but also other wides thought my life. I have to be staunch and to do all the thins well no matter the things i hate or like. I should face it.

My friends, I visited serverl good friends this month. Hm,no so good. This society have killed so many people and the a lot of good things. I am not good to theirs, but i have to comfort them for theirs thinking that i am pansophy and could give them advice when they are in the trouble.

My familys, no matter how the work easy and no matter how much money they earned. People will be tried. And now my familys was this cituation.I was sad when i saw this.Hope this time pasted soon.

It is a week since the last time that I suffer the net,a long time for me.Played day and night,bored and seems wasting time.

My mom and my old sister call me time to time by the way send message asking for the time when i would come back.It says it has a job that may be suit me.But i don’t want work where which my family round. It make feel terrible.

I feel alone and emptiness,but i have no idea for comparing the feeling around my family.My friend have to go work.We can not dispute the situation.At the same time it means my holiday is over.I choose to find a job here.Even if i feel some alone,no chance,i have to independent.

I decide to be employed by the network management for my short holiday.Unbelievable,they didn’t employ me,in other words they didn’t give me the interview chance just for my hometown is JiangXi province.It is funny,although i think i can do the job well.And i am well done in it,i could do it better then anyone else.I majored in information  in college.and i have done lots of these things liked this,i developed some softs before and i am a software designer.Oh my god,how it can be this.hehe.

“Lost”

By the way it has solar eclipse today.